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Who are Honorable?!

Tue, 01 Dec 2009 04:10:57 GMT

Sometimes actions are not always right. I'm sorry to add more confusion to all this, but believe it or not some people do mean the words that comes out of their mouth. Some are men of action.... but there are also those who are man of words. They are equally honorable people! So Judge less and perceive more!
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I love adding videos to my blog! The video below is our own Chu-Cha! I love that nick name for him. His real name is Jaden...... One of my boys!! I love this kid!!

What Are You Thankful Of? Happy Salamat Day!

Sat, 28 Nov 2009 00:23:01 GMT

I have a lot to be thankful of. I'd mention them all but there is to many in my list. I will give you my top one for this year.
I would have to say my Mom. She has not once abandoned me. 2009 has not been kind to me at all. But through its darkness my mother was there to light up my path. I'm not gonna go in detail but believe me when I say my mom really pulled through this year for me. I LOVE YOU MOM!!

Here is a video of my friend Audrey and her daughter. I know were just joking around but It was nice to see them both in one of my crazy videos. Its about what they are Thankful of this year.
ENJOY

Sunday, November 22, 2009

Sun, 22 Nov 2009 03:35:58 GMT

This was a tasting for "Julias Paraiso Catering". I was invited by a friend. It was good food and great people. If ever I would need catering for a party I would definitely hire this company for their services.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Thu, 19 Nov 2009 02:41:37 GMT

My cousin Dan lost his faith in our champion!! Pacquiao VS Cotto!

I'm Back... I think.. hehehe!

Thu, 20 Aug 2009 07:41:39 GMT

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Sun, 22 Feb 2009 06:08:37 GMT

"LOST"

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 14:27:52 GMT

I was up all night again last night. I have so much in my mind and it's a mess. It doesn't matter how organize I can be I can still easily lose myself in my thoughts. I don't know if that makes any sense but that is my mood at the moment "Lost"!

I love watching movies and its all that I have been doing lately. My mother believes that I might be trying to escape from reality by watching movies. She said she was joking but it really made me think. Maybe there is some truth to her comedic attempt. Maybe I really don't know myself as well as I thought.

Numb!

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 16:30:57 GMT

I had a good conversation with a friend today. I was at buffalo wild wings talking to her on the phone while drinking a tall glass of Blue moon.. hehehe! She told me that she noticed i have been drinking more than usual. I laughed and said I don't know what you are talking about. I was really honest about the response I gave her. I really did not know what she was talking about until I had a moment to think and look back at 2 weeks into my life. I have been drinking more. To be more specific... last night i finished a bottle or red wine and also the day before that. last saturday i went out with 2 of my best friends clubbing to celebrate my brithday. I think i drank about 15 beers that night.

She also said I'm probably thinking to much. She thinks that I am magnifying my problems to the point where i gave it life. Because I gave it life I lost control and helped it evolve into pain. She believes that I drink to numb myself from that pain.

I told her she is over reacting about this. Then she said..... she wishes she over reacted with her father before he passed away and maybe he would still be alive today. Her father was an alcoholic. He died because of the complications that came with his addiction. I said I'm sorry about her father. She then said.... I got though it with a lot of work and sacrifices, but if it happens again to someone I love and care about... I don't know if I could get through it again.

Our conversation ended by me saying I have to go cause my mom is calling. She wasn't really calling. Why did I do that? I don't understand. Why did I lie to her? She is probably going to read this and I'm really sorry I did that.

SEX AND MORE SEX!

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 14:17:53 GMT

Sex and more Sex!

Well I understand that Sex should be about the emotional journey and it should be spiritual... But if your partner just lays there and you are doing all the work then all the emotional and spiritual stuff just went out the window!

To have good sex you should have the skills needed. You have to be imaginative and sometimes a little freaky.... nothing wrong with that... hehehe! We have needs or wants that we want our partner to fulfill. If that is fulfilled then the emotional journey is worth taking.

Sex to me is so much better when its with someone who you truly have feelings for. It doesn't have to be love. Attraction is also strong. But if you want sex to be fulfilling and meaningful then find someone you love. Attraction can just do so much. Attraction is fun but that can fade easily and the person you were with will eventually just disappear and you better hope that that person is not a friend because even your friendship can be destroyed.

Love in other hand will not easily fade away. Because when it is gone.... it hurts. I know we do not want to feel hurt. But sometimes the hurt keeps us coming back. Hurt is one of the emotions that keeps us committed to the people we love and to ourselves. I am not talking about abuse or any of that horrible stuff. Because if you are in an abusive relationship you know what the pain is like and you know you should get out... but some people don't. I won't get into that right now. But i hope you know the difference. If you do... then I believe you now have the tools to take this to the next level. Now sex has become a part of your spiritual journey.

Okey i'm not saying "attraction sex" is bad. I am merely explaining the differences of the two in my own opinion. I could be wrong but it doesn't matter. What really matters is what you believe in. What matters is what you think you deserve. But if your belief takes you to the wrong path then at least be mature enough to take responsiblity. Nothing is ever easy..... but at least try to be someone you can be proud of. peace!!

Doing The Right Thing Sucks!!!

Thu, 02 Oct 2008 03:55:48 GMT

Doing the right thing is always so damn hard to do. I have been trying to practice this type of living for the past 2 years now. I am proud of some of the things that I have accomplished and the people that i have helped. I am most specially proud of the relationship I built with friends and sad for the friends I've lost... not because of death but because of the lack of trust.

The only thing that gave me the drive to always try to do the right thing is to always remember that I am human. Even though I want to be perfect I know that I can not.

I still do stupid things. I still hurt the ones I love and care about... even though its not my intention. But I always try to make it right. I also know I should forgive people for what they have done to me... but it is not easy. Not because I don't want to do it... but its because I am not ready.

I love taking the easy way out to resolve my issues. When I say easy way out.... I mean whats going to make me feel good now. Just to temporally forget my problems. I pretty much just drug myself to forget about it and not deal with it.

I still have some of those bad habits... Not the drug part.... I don't do that anymore. But I am not going to sit here and lie that i haven't thought about it. I like to believe that I am stronger now because of experience.

When I speak of this to some people specially friends some of them tend to remind me of what I have done in the past. They make it seem like I can never change. Like its impossible or something. I almost believed them. But then I realize their lives are no better than mine. They have issues and they cover it by blaming other people instead of facing up to it. Some even hurt other people just so they feel better about themselves. OMG!! This sounds totally like me a couple years ago.

I think I have grown! My faith is stronger and the line I walk seems straighter. I've let a lot of damaging things go specially the things that i have no control of. I am closer to my family than ever and most importantly I have gained a lot of their trust back.

But even though it is wonderful now. The road I had to take was not an easy one. It is frustrating and the challenges are always a constant battle to be fought. But just like a lion in battle.... I have learned to roar!!

peace!!