I had a good conversation with a friend today. I was at buffalo wild wings talking to her on the phone while drinking a tall glass of Blue moon.. hehehe! She told me that she noticed i have been drinking more than usual. I laughed and said I don't know what you are talking about. I was really honest about the response I gave her. I really did not know what she was talking about until I had a moment to think and look back at 2 weeks into my life. I have been drinking more. To be more specific... last night i finished a bottle or red wine and also the day before that. last saturday i went out with 2 of my best friends clubbing to celebrate my brithday. I think i drank about 15 beers that night.
She also said I'm probably thinking to much. She thinks that I am magnifying my problems to the point where i gave it life. Because I gave it life I lost control and helped it evolve into pain. She believes that I drink to numb myself from that pain.
I told her she is over reacting about this. Then she said..... she wishes she over reacted with her father before he passed away and maybe he would still be alive today. Her father was an alcoholic. He died because of the complications that came with his addiction. I said I'm sorry about her father. She then said.... I got though it with a lot of work and sacrifices, but if it happens again to someone I love and care about... I don't know if I could get through it again.
Our conversation ended by me saying I have to go cause my mom is calling. She wasn't really calling. Why did I do that? I don't understand. Why did I lie to her? She is probably going to read this and I'm really sorry I did that.
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sorry i read it first lol. well, i think if u are drinking because u know exactly why u want it, is actually fine (like trying to forget some problem that's been lingering lol, coz u did mentioned it). but if ur drinking, and don't exactly know why ur drinking, or just having too much fun doing it for no apparent reason, then that may count for addiction. hmm..anyhow, like u said, it's only been 2 weeks, that isn't chronic drinking yet lol so u can tell ur friend there is nothing to worry about..but she has to monitor though haha.
anyways, thanks for ur comment about my dream, but just to give u an update, that day after i wrote that entry, my cousin went to see my Mom and told her that his sis inlaw died, who was pretty much close to our family too. and so yeah, i agree with u, when u said that somehow, these dreams we are having, whether its just a simple dream or a nightmare for that matter, is actually trying to convey a message. i guess this was the message, i prolly misinterpreted it, or clearly i did! but the fact that somebody did died, that's the only thing i can link to that dream i had. unless of course like i said, the upcoming test i will be taking lol :) but with regards to my relationship to my brother, i am very close to them, and we or at least me lol don't have an issue to either one of them. i don't know though if they's got some issue with me lol
anyways, u enjoy the rest of the week and whatever problems it is ur having, smile. remember, this too shall pass...u take care!